Thursday, May 10, 2012

My Life is a Gift

Dear Friends,
   It has been a while since i have been online. Some of you know this already, but i have been in our big hospital in Albany NY(Albany Medical Center)recovering from a stroke. Saturday, April 28th, i was just washing my supper dishes, when i suddenly got an enormous and very unusual headache. I knew right away that it was serious, so i put away the critters in a room where they would be safe, and called 911. After many tests and turned out to be a subarachnoid hemorrhage , or a Hemorrhagic Stroke. One of the first things they told me was, i was a very luck girl. This kind of bleed has a higher fatality rate, and the prognosis is poorer for those who have these sort of strokes. In my opinion, i am a MIRACLE! I have absolutely NO deficits from this event(that have surfaced as of yet) and i am ALIVE! For those of you who knew what happened and have been praying for me, THANK YOU so much. I am sure that is a big reason why my condition is so stable. For those of you who are wanting to know what to do to help, please pray for me and my family, and send your healing energy my way. I am not out of the woods yet. I am walking with a walker, as i am pretty off balance and am taking some pretty strong drugs for the pain. I always have a baseline headache, and the pain in my back and legs almost takes my breath away when it starts. I am told this back and leg pain is due to my body reabsorbing the blood via the spinal column.
    This has been pretty hard on my Family. My husband Bill had to go into respite service to be cared for, and my daughters, my Parents and friends have all put themselves out there helping me recover. I am a very fortunate woman to have so many people care about me. Thank you Everyone!
     This is the first time i have been able to sit long enough to type, and the light from the screen hurts my eyes. So i will not be online as much as usual, but this will pass as i get stronger. I haven't been able to watch tv or listen to music, or read as i seem to be super sensitive to that sort of thing. For the first time in forever i have spent a lot of time in silence, thinking, planning for the future. There is a reason this did not kill me. I need to figure out what to do with the rest of my life, and pay it forward...
                                                                                               Love, mare


Lola Nova said...

My dearest Mare, I have been so concerned about you. You have been in my prayers and we have been sending healing thoughts your way. I am so glad to hear that you are recovering. I am so thankful that you have your family taking care of you. Take it slow and easy my friend.
We love you!


Dip-Dip and the Bridge said...

Oh my goodness Mare! I had no idea that this has happened to you and I thank God you are alright.
I am positive it was all down to your quick response to what was happening that saved you from this being more serious. There is an advert here that lists the symptoms of a stroke and says it is like a fire, the quicker you get to hospital, the less damage you will have.
So happy to hear you have your family to take care of you and your hubby and the pets.
Take care of yourself dear friend!
Lynne and the chihuahuas x

Archie and Melissa said...

my dearest mare
oh my gosh!
i am sending you all of my love!
you are an amazing person and your whole family is a strong and powerful energy of love and healing.
archie and i are thinking of all of you and are always always here for you.

Paula said...

Oh my goodness~ I had no idea! I've been off the computer for a while too, Mare, and I didn't know... I'm so sorry this happened but SO THANKFUL you are still with us, dear friend!
It sounds like you have a circle of love and help around you... I wish I could be there to help too but prayers and good thought are all I can send... ((HUGS))

Yarny Days said...

So glad to hear from you. Sending you lots of positive energy...

Laura said...

Dear Mare,
Sending you love and healing energy! Take care, grown strong.
Enjoy the quiet for awhile.

Mare said...

i am so Blessed with so many loving friends...Thank you all so much. i love you all...

Claire the Shepherdess said...

Oh Mare, I was so sorry to read about what happened to you, and yet so glad to hear of your strength and resolve. I am also glad to hear how your family has come together to support you. As you go forward in this journey, may the days ahead be brighter and full of joy.
Take care of yourself - you are loved by many! xo

Mare said...

Thank you Claire, i love you too!